Room to Grow in Grace

  It is  6:01 A.M which seems to be an odd time to be awake or for  me it is at least but it's also been a peaceful for me even though I am not a morning person. I've needed this morning very much because the past few days since I've been home from my Summer missions, I have found my heart to be a sea of emotions especially with my younger sister getting married.  And because there hasn't been a lot of distractions my emotions have been to it's fullest. I actually didn't come into a lot of this awareness of how much was going inside until now. It took the Father to use a  friend of mind and His word to point this out to me.
 I had been using distractions for so long or at least I didn't have much time to think about it when I was gone that it was like my heart it me like a  giant wave.  And once it was brought to my face I could identify areas that would make this true because  whenever my sister starts talking about her wedding I want to tune her out. I honestly have found it hard to be of approval and understanding. And it's been particularly hard for me to understand because I feel like it's so unfair. Grant it those are my feelings but I've been learning to work through my feelings and that  we don't have to apologize for our feelings. Our feelings can be a scary place but it can also give us a reality check of who we are.
And so as I write this I pray that our Father can use this for His glory because I imagine I am not the first to deal with this matter ; especially when a sweet friend of mine from Richmond shared her story with me. I also  at the same time have become aware that I need to give myself room to grow in grace.  That's another point I really want to cross this morning. I don't want to emphasize the emotional more or less over the words that have been spoken to me.  These are just a few word the Father has began to speak over me:

Isaiah 33:2,6 & 22
 * 2
  Lord , be gracious to us for  we long for you. Be our strength every morning. Our salvation in the time of distress
*6
He will be the sure foundation for your times, a  rich stone of salvation and wisdom and knowledge. The Fear of the Lord the key to this treasure
* 22
For the Lord  is our judge, the Lord is our Lawgiver, the Lord is our King, It is He who will save us

 I know those are just a few words but  it's what my heart needed this morning. And if your an emotional person like me  I pray that Our Father can use  this to speak truth to you. Grant it I know some of us may not be dealing with these circumstances, however what I have learned also too is that feelings allow us to relate. So, today I pray Our Father would remind us to give ourselves some grace to grow.