Restore The Innocense

 Imagine with me you are this 5 year old boy who was forced to work as a  slave in a brick kiln outside Bangalore , India. Covered in clay dirt with your tiny hands formed around bricks in the hot son for endless hours each day. Your owner is violent and would beat you and the other slaves working tirelessly in the dangerous brick kilin.  And the little money you have goes back to  your owner to pay off debt that could never be paid in full.  For this little boy name Arjun it was true and he had little hope of escape.
But hope did knock at the door

Justice came because a team was sent to rescue Arjun because this team was willing to work with the authorities. And because of this, Arjun is free!

The number of people still enslaved are countless. Unfortunately not all the slaves are free. There are more then 27 million but because Hope still  exist we can take a stand. It's very simple make people aware and make the pledge with : www.enditmovement.com

A Heart to Heart Check Up

Today  I kept thinking I haven't blogged in a while and I thought what could I share. I thought I could write an update on life but then a rock just dropped on my head. The question of:

" How much time do I spend updating my statuses or  sharing my opinion in comparison of telling God whats on my heart?"

Talk about a burn! I found here lately that sometimes I spend so much time writing wanting to share but failing to share  with the One who has called me into a relationship with Him. I'm not saying one shouldn't share but there are appropriate times to share.

In that's even a question, I have asked " When & how should I share?" And  really it's more simple then I have noted. In fact it's simple. Start with sharing with the One who is with you 24/7.   It should seem like that would be simple as I mentioned but if your any thing like me that thought can tend to slip at times, especially because I tend to be a face to face person. However, I think that this present  a wall for me because I often fail to see I'm always face to face with God.
It may not be  a physical person like it was when He was sent in human form  on this earth but  if he made everything, then wouldn't it mean that His face is every where?

I'm telling you the rocks keep dropping. And perhaps this memo is for me  but  I  know for me it has been a journey since my Freshmen year of college but now  I am learning to  strain out my thoughts before they are blurted out and realizing  that there is always someone to talk to but when do I allow Him to be heart to heart with me. Still in process of this thought but  it definitely the current lesson.

Hope Is Beyond Circumstances

 This Christmas season is far different then any others I can remember. In fact it hasn't really felt like Christmas. Although Christmas seems to hold  two kinds of emotions joy or perhaps some hurts that have came our way. For some of us we may be missing someone who passed a way or maybe some rocks have hit your bucket that you we're not expecting. However, knowing that Christmas is a few days away there seems to be  new lesson that I  have seem to over look.  For those of us who have heard the Christmas story I'm sure you could tell  detail to detail from baby Jesus to Mary and Joseph but  I think that there is even a deeper meaning that gets over looked.
The fact that Jesus is light.
 And as many times as one can hear it, it can be a challenge to live out but to think that Jesus was born into the darkness that we may have light brings a whole new perspective. At least for me it has in the last few days. I can't really imagine what each one of you have went through this season but for me it has been one of the most challenging ones from dealing with anxiety, the first year without my grandma and really how do or where do I start this new journey  after college. I can't tell you how many times I have set questioning God almost to the point that my mind is still confused from thanking Him to wanting answers but  from this season  I feel like I am learning an important lesson of facing the circumstances and knowing there is hope which can be difficult.
  If any thing I could say that these tests in life seem to show us even more what hope is about. In fact this statement I heard about hope kept me thinking, " The Circumstances may not change instant. You may face emotions of saddness or anger but  it's even greater chance to live in Hope". It wasn't exactly said like that but it did make me think. I felt challenged after that especially to realize that   I have a choice . And  I have Hope which is the light of Christ then I have even more reason to face this season. So, I share this in hopes that maybe someone else needs reminded of Hope because I know I need it everyday just as much as the next person. May you have a Merry Christmas!

Man Closest To My Heart

Soft pasty wrinkled skin
brim fingers and dried calsus with hands that
have held small quaint children
plucked a weed or two with a heart that has hugged each person
with a smile or maybe even honked the horn to say " Hello"
Whistles ringing sweet music to the ear
shucking corn till sweat of brow
sneaking candy to grand children but never lets his
sweet tooth fade because each smile is worth showing

My Grandmother's Peanut Butter Fudge

This is my grandmother's peanutbutter fudge. She would always make it during Thanksgiving and Christmas. I thought I would include this in my blog. Especially as I miss her being here in this season. And one thing my grandmother always make sure of that everyone was fed. So I hope you'll enjoy this recipe.

Mix 3 cups sugar with a small can evaporated milk and 1 stick of butter in a pan on medium heat- bring to a rapid boil and let it boil for 5 minutes-remove from heat add small container of marshmallow and a bag of peanut butter chips ( can use a small jar of peanut butter) spread out in pan - then let it cool then cut n eat

Oh Little Us

When I was little I said I want to be big
When I was big I said I want to be little
Oh little do I know

So I said if I can't be little  I want to know more
When I found more I said I want to know little
Little do I know that I know what I need to know

 I think perhaps if Eve , Adam and I could talk
I would ask Eve, " Was eating the apple really worth it to know more?"
and " Do you know more?"

I think not
I think not

 What little things did we as humans know
We only know what we know but do not realize  we can't know all

Oh little us
Oh little us

When will one learn
I think not I know
I think not I know

Perhaps it's best
Perhaps it's best
And perhaps one should take shade accepting He is Father and I am not

Life In The Current

 It  has been a good portion of time since I've been able to write. It's hard to capture all of the events but if I had sum up the core of what I've been learning it would come from the conversation I had with a precious friend of mine. My friend had asked me how I was processing things and in that response all I could think about is that I have no idea how to process the events in my life right now. Then she lovingly responded that in life we're always trying to process things but the truth is we're to live in that moment. Those we're not the exact words but it's good summary of what was said.
 If life has taught me any thing I have learned that our bodies we're not meant to be robots. There's no way that we can stand and say I think that I'll press this button today.
Life doesn't work that way at all. I wish it did but I have learned that somethings  the truth is we're in the need of accepting who we are. That one is mark right across my forehead because I tend to want to fix things all the times. I forget that maybe things are ok just the way they are. They dont' always feel or seem ok but in God's eye's they are.
I have yet to figure that one out. I have  definitely asked God those countless questions and I've told Him many times I don't understand.
If there was a time in my life where my faith has been tested it has been now. My life is full of transitions right now from:

•  The first year  coming up without my grandma
• My younger sister getting married
•  Graduating UC ( Which I call home)
•  Praying for my friends healing

And I'm sure the list goes on but this period in my life has probably been far the most interesting one.
I don't really know how this all turns out after December but I think I'm starting to come aware that all I have to do is live for the day and  realize that I would have more peace if I just accepted I am not and He is I am. Those are my current thoughts and I hope they can shed some light to someone.