Life In The Current

 It  has been a good portion of time since I've been able to write. It's hard to capture all of the events but if I had sum up the core of what I've been learning it would come from the conversation I had with a precious friend of mine. My friend had asked me how I was processing things and in that response all I could think about is that I have no idea how to process the events in my life right now. Then she lovingly responded that in life we're always trying to process things but the truth is we're to live in that moment. Those we're not the exact words but it's good summary of what was said.
 If life has taught me any thing I have learned that our bodies we're not meant to be robots. There's no way that we can stand and say I think that I'll press this button today.
Life doesn't work that way at all. I wish it did but I have learned that somethings  the truth is we're in the need of accepting who we are. That one is mark right across my forehead because I tend to want to fix things all the times. I forget that maybe things are ok just the way they are. They dont' always feel or seem ok but in God's eye's they are.
I have yet to figure that one out. I have  definitely asked God those countless questions and I've told Him many times I don't understand.
If there was a time in my life where my faith has been tested it has been now. My life is full of transitions right now from:

•  The first year  coming up without my grandma
• My younger sister getting married
•  Graduating UC ( Which I call home)
•  Praying for my friends healing

And I'm sure the list goes on but this period in my life has probably been far the most interesting one.
I don't really know how this all turns out after December but I think I'm starting to come aware that all I have to do is live for the day and  realize that I would have more peace if I just accepted I am not and He is I am. Those are my current thoughts and I hope they can shed some light to someone.